excuse my partial swearing...
but i am uber pissed at D/A now...

I just attempted to submit a file that took over 45 minutes to type...i didn't save it on the computer like a dumbass. I was just typing it on the text thingy...from a journal thing.

And now it's gone...

and i am not going to re-attempt it tonight

or i might end up smashing this worthless piece of shit.

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

night everyone!!!!

I suggest to you ( if you like forign films anyway) to rent Letters from Iwo-Jima. It is incredible and i loved every second of it. It actually made me cry a little ( something i rarely do for movies. ) If you don't mind sub-titles then that's good, if you DO mind them, then find another movie. But it is truely great and i loved it. It is my new favorite movie.

so yeah,

LETTERS FROM IWO-JIMA!!!!!!!!!!

haha. Just thought i would let you know. ^^

Now if anyone knows my mother you would know the statement is true that she is truely insane.

Not even kidding.

Well last night I said this to her after she was getting all pissy and was yelling at me about church and my medication and what not so i say ( to myself, not yelling, whispering to myself BEHIND a closed door) Fine, i'll take my god damn meds."

She runs in. Yelling, WHAT DID YOU SAY!? She grabbed my neck (which i got some cool pictures of the marks later that night but i won't be posting them) Screams at me more while i am choking and then she throws me to the ground, slamming my head into a desk. (i have a huge freaken bump on my head now) Still screaming at me and then she freaken kicks me (got a bruise too) still screaming this and then she slams my door leaving me on the ground holding my head and my neck.

Then this morning she says Why can't you be like sam? Sam is the perfect child, your the troubled child. Litterally what she said to me.

and then she says no concert with ariel. ( i am attempting to negoitiate this) and storms out of the kitchen. After church (which i escaped from sitting next to her by Cassie THANK YOU CASSIE!) she acts all nice and wonderful and sweet and blah blah blah. Like nothing ever happened.

Sam was really freaken scared last night. He said he almost ran into my room and hit mom. (dad is NOT home so he wouldn't have done anything) But thanks sam. Gotta love you.

Sooooo...can anyone shed some light on this? I think that when she had back surgery they fucked with her spinal cord and made her bi-polar...if that is even possible.

Tonight i will most likely run away to sierra's house, i do not feel safe and sierra knows everything, i told her last night Via text messaging.

yeah.....

FUCK HER! (mom not sierra)

So far my week has been going pretty good for not "partying". My brother has gotten drunk in Portland....NOT HIS FAULT. the guy at the resturant was stupid and forget to remove the vodka from the Daquiries...or however you spell it. Mom's in Boston for a Post operation check up. Dad's in Vinalhaven fixing up the camp we're going to. I am at sierra's grammies house seeing how all my family is somewhere else in the world. On the 3rd we're going out to Vinalhaven to see some family and camp out for the 4rth of July. And then on the 7th i am coming back to go to a concert on the 8th with Ariel, and then we MIGHT be coming back ont he 9th...but i am not sure...lol. Then in a week i will be going to music camp for 2 weeks. DDDD. the only downside, i won't get to see noah, because most of my friends are musical anyways so they're going with me! Except morgan cause he's a buttmuncher lol. Well, I was boared and just felt like writing, maybe i'll do another creative writing piece or something. Okay bye!!!!!!!

On friday after spending an hour or two with noah my mom and brother and I headed out to portland to see some family that had come up. My aunt was already there with Olivia and molly. Olivia= annoying as hell molly= a cutie They would NOT LET US DO ANYTHING ALONE! they followed us everywhere. I was about to kill myself. THe next day we went to the beach with them and molly and olivia through sand at each other. That night at 11 o clock i hoped in the car with no pants on at first and no shoes to go pick up my mom's cousins and my 2nd removed cousins from the airport.

They were from arizona and john is about my age. We stopped into a gas station after reminiscing about the plane ride. Inside the gas station was a hardcore emo chick. John followed her around and laughed. And then we saw this 80's band there. You know, Big bleach white hair and tight leather? yeah...we also laughed our asses off.

We went home and went into the shed of which we slept. Because arizona is a 3 hours time difference i belive, they were up FOREVER!!! we finally got to sleep after many sexual queshtions later.

2 days later we walked an hour and half to the pier, john sam and I. We did nothing but get kicked out of the arcade and watch the DDRX girls dance outside. (don't ask) Sam broke a skeeball machine and john was whoring himself off. lmao.

after we went home we took two dead bushes we dug up and sam took out a mail box. We went streaking on the beach and john got tackled by a guy that he yelled "TAG!" to and punched. it was ultra funny.

The next day i went home.

now, the journey to ilsebourogh. The olsen's boat broke down.So we all had to take the ferry. After deciding that we were going to throw ryan off of the boat we landed. All the boys were in the truck and all the girls were in the volvo. Me and janet were stowaways in the trunk. We got there and went swimming. I lost my favorite shirt. . After drowning each other and buliding sand castles we headed up to camp and went on a barefoot tour. We ended up with skunk cabbage juice on our legs and thorns in our foot.

we later bbrq'ed hotdogs and mine exploded. After roasting marshmellow's we headed down to the beach and lit fireworks. Ariel, janet and I formed a love octagon. I belive this is what it consists of:
Noah
moi
janet
ariel,
james
morgan
ryan
and
brian.
yupp. jealous?

The whole time James was calling janet out about stealing "our women" with her sexiness. After all she is the sexiest man alive. lmao.

We all played dead man in the forest and i scared the crap out of emma, lydia and maggie. and nw i am home and that's it.

thanks for reading